Self excluded for life

I’m done with living life in an endless loop and trance. The fake cheap dopamine spikes and adrenaline that made my whole body shake after betting all day. The inevitable misery of loosing and wins that were just ammo to keep going.

I really didn’t want to, my entire body and brain were trying to stop me from excluding. But I did it despite that, and now I can’t gamble anymore. I feel extremely relieved and a little sad, but it was the right thing to do.