I posted the other day about hitting rock bottom and continuing to dig further…. knowing it was finally time to tell my wife despite knowing it will change everything.
I went ahead and did it. She was much kinder than I deserved. I've handed over finances and am going to begin healing process….. whatever that entails.
In kind of a state of mourning at the moment…. still playing the psychological games of what could have been if I just had restraint and discipline. I already lost the autonomy of willpower, now my financial freedom is also forever gone.
Have this morbid feeling that I'm just going to swap out this addiction with something else. Hopefully a healthy alternative, but that doesn't feel like it's in my DNA.
Still, a positive step after a million backpedals. I'll take it.
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It would also behoove you to find a meeting as well. Good luck.
Im not familiar with your first post, but I am very familiar with the feelings shared in this current post. I too came clean to my wife late past November. Its absolutely the lowest I have ever felt in my adult life with feelings of shame, guilt, embarrassment, and my pride being reduced down to nothingness. I mean how could I, the leader/protector of my family selfishly and secretly spend all of our savings? The answer is; Its a disease man. And Its got a hell of a tight grip.
I applaud you for getting out from under the trap. Your on the right track, Its tough but Tuck your pride and handover the finance control to your wife. Eat the shit when she’s mad, because you did it. Be a man and take it on the chest. Attend a virtual GA meeting, (I go every Wednesday). Use the hate you have for yourself and workout. Everyday gets better, and with hardwork and mind-control you’ll be a better man in the end. Keep it up my guy.
Dude you have no idea how much closer you are to a happy life in recovery. You came clean to the person closest to you, and she’s giving you another chance. This addiction thrives in secrecy and now you can start fighting back. Very happy for you and dm me if you ever need someone to talk to.
Should be opposite of mourning. You’re on the right path. God bless
Keep yourself busy man.. for the next month or two it’s essential to just keep busy, try to cut all forms of gambling content and try to live a life where gambling related stuff isn’t involved in it.. you can do this!
Dude fuck yeah.
As a fellow gambling addict who had to come clean to his wife, one of the absolute hardest things I’ve ever done.
Serious props to you on starting the right path. It’s not easy in the least.