Why do I continue to gamble. I just don’t understand what goes through my head. I am so done with having long gambling binges. Sleepless nights. Depressed all day. I earn well but still throw away all my money and have a debt. There is just no control. Got in € 6000 paid my fixed cost of around 2500 had 3500 to pay off my creditcard. Gambled it in a few hours. Debt is now around € 50000,- I can’t even sleep properly as I wake up shocked and just don’t know what I am doing anymore.
Since November of 2024. I haven’t been able to stop gambling for longer than 2 weeks and that was because I did not have money at the moment. Sold my watches and gold in 2025 to fund my addiction and when in September 2025 I had sold my watch which I worked so hard for €32000 to clear all my debts and start over. The week after I was again in the casino to now having a €50000 debt and nothing to my name. I say I will stop but I just don’t know what will happen.
The worst part I have 2 brothers who are very successful and doing big things. While I am just digging holes in my future. I make plans to pay it off but when I have a few days for a bill I will just gamble it all away.
Life sucks but really trying to stay strong.
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Once a pickle and no longer a cucumber, how the transformation happened is unimportant. Human nature wants us to try and understand it. Unfortunately though, pursuing that line of thinking will be chasing your tail and your addictive self will be happy that you keep moving around in the quicksand of thought. Every action you take seeking the answer as to why is another costly distraction from getting real help. Ever been to a self-help meeting in person or on Zoom? Sal
This is exactly what I’m going through just lost 5000$ cad yesterday again, what kind of watch did you sell?
It was a Rolex Daytona still hurts and now again in heavy debt.