I’ve been sober from alcohol and benzos for a little over a year. Most people would be glowing from the drastic lifestyle change. Instead, I’ve quietly suffered through an even worse addition to gambling. I had no idea she had her hooks in me deeper than any drug or substance. While being cheered on by my family and peers through getting clean and sober, I‘ve pissed away tens of thousands of dollars, and remained stuck in the endless dopamine loop that online gambling provided me. It’s affected my mood and mental health. I find no joy in life. I’ve been consumed by the action. An apathetic husband…a lazy and impatient father. I have to be better for my family.
Tonight I finally banned myself from every site I‘ve ever played on. Not because I went on a huge cooler, or lost it all…but because I’ve had enough rock bottoms in my life to know when another one is right around the corner—and I’m afraid I wouldn’t survive another bottom.
For those of you out there fighting the good fight, godspeed.
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Good man. Never go back. Only forward.
Please read and follow the step in this article if you want to break your gambling addiction. Hit me up in chat if you have any questions or need to talk. Regards, John [https://www.reddit.com/r/problemgambling/comments/1pxt0at/what_happens_to_you_when_youre_addicted_to/](https://www.reddit.com/r/problemgambling/comments/1pxt0at/what_happens_to_you_when_youre_addicted_to/)
Hey man, glad you’re getting sober. User of gambling 10 years. Planks and football user for 6 years (still using just honesty). I decided to quit gambling the exact same reason just tired of all the damn apologies thst never stuck. The “bank is holding my money” glad you didn’t hit rock bottom this time and be the best father you can be you got this man ❤️