I had a wonderful w1n. All of my debts had been erased and I felt wonderful. Yet, something dragged me back in. Maybe it's boredom, maybe it's depression, or maybe it's flat out addiction.
I went on tonight hoping to earn a couple extra hundred dollars. I was excited and full of optimism. Afrer the previous night I felt untouchable and as if everything was going my way. Boy, was I wrong.
I started off depositing $300. That 300 turned into 400, which turned into 1000, which turned into 6000 at the end of the night. I lost everything that I had w0n in mere minutes.
I hate myself so much. If I had just gone out with friends or done anything else this would have never happened. It hurts because I had the opportunity to go out and I declined because I didn't want to drive out anywhere. I ruined myself and I hate myself so much for it.
The good news, if any, from this situation is that I am completely debt free. I have no one I need to pay back and did not take out any loans. However, I am feeling extremely depressed from this situation. I could have bought everything I ever wanted with this money yet I fucked up and lost it all.
The moral of this story is that no matter how much you win, it's all a scam. The casinos are out to get you. You think that they build their BILLIONS of dollars by rewarding the player? Absolutely not.
I am looking for help in this vulnerable moment. Please send me messages or leave a reply below, I really need someone to talk about this with anonymously. I'm filled with so much self hate right now and I don't know what to do moving forward. Thank you in advance for any assistance.
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If you had gone out with friends it wouldn’t have made any difference, you’d have gambled and lost the next day or the day after. Gambling addicts don’t quit after winning. You needed the loss in order to set you on the path to quitting. So take that path and don’t look back
All I’m gonna say is go read my first post 1 year ago bro and then read my more recent ones and you’ll see a comeback story and the trajectory you will be headed down if you decide to throw the towel in for good and go all in on your recovery like your life depends on it.
Every post here is identical if we continue gambling we will always lose in the end because as someone here mentioned that’s what’s supposed to happen to us when we gamble.
Casino games, sports betting, & stocks are designed to make us lose based off impulse control and odds alone and like you said that’s why they make billions every month building new lavish casinos and now with online they’re targeting the whole global population so this shit will only get worse.
It’s sick, it’s disgusting but it’s not going anywhere so it’s up to us to not be a statistic to it.
Go against the odds, bet on yourself and I promise you that you will rebuild everything by working and you will sleep peacefully at night again, you will have healthy relationships you’ll be present for and your future will be full of opportunity, instead of regret.
All the best my friend. One day at a time 🤞🏼❤️
Here is my post from my first day in this community almost a year ago. Broke, broken, hopeless, but also deciding I want to CHANGE. 11 months clean now I can tell you that’s exactly what I got, because I worked damn hard for it.
https://www.reddit.com/r/problemgambling/s/VGTyw27DLA
That crash from feeling “untouchable” to losing it all can be brutal. What you’re describing — the optimism, the momentum, and then everything flipping in minutes — hits really hard emotionally, not just financially.
The self-hate you’re feeling right now makes sense after a swing like that, but it’s not a verdict on who you are. That surge of confidence followed by a wipeout is exactly how this hooks people — it doesn’t mean you’re weak or stupid.
Right now it sounds like you’re sitting in the aftermath, when the regret and “what ifs” are loudest. Getting this out and being heard is already doing something important.