I wouldn’t say I have a severe gambling problem but I never cash out when I win big and I’m sick of it. I don’t actually gamble that much. in fact until today I hadn’t gambled in weeks or months, I don’t even remember but I know when I did it’s almost always 100$ with 1$ bets to see if I can win 1-200$, nothing crazy. I actually hate gambling because I don’t like to lose, I get horribly angry! I haven’t technically lost that much money either compared to some of the horror stories I have read but I just blew through 600$ for no damn reason when I really needed the money. I never seem to stop when I’m ahead and then I’ll lose 1-300$ and get super angry and just lose the rest out of pure rage.
I lost about 400$ then I won it all back but I kept going and won another 200$ getting to 600$. i absolutely should have withdrawn at that point asap and I didn’t. So I end up going down 100,200,300 and before you know it I’m like wtf I had 600$ and I try to do what I already just did which was win a couple hundred bucks so I can cash out like I already should have done in the first place!
I won 12,000$ on buffalo gold in january of 2025 and I somehow lost ALL of it, I never even withdrew the damn money. It happens every time I win a lot or lose a lot. The weird thing is I’m perfectly capable of only betting 100$ and if I win 50-200$ I withdraw it right away. but whenever I win a lot I always F’ing lose it right back and then I get SUPER angry and spend more money trying to win back what I lost. The thing is sometimes I actually do win back what I lost but I can’t take the losing anymore.
All together I’m probably breaking even or only slightly behind. I don’t really bet that much compared to what some people seem to do. The most I bet is 2$.
I think I‘m writing this because I don‘t understand what the F I was thinking. I had 600$, I started with 400$ and then I lost all the damn money. I could have stopped at 400 at the worst. I should have withdrawn as soon as I won 350$ on a bonus game.. I couldn‘t believe I won it. Then I was like ok, let me try to etc etc but I should have 100% cashed out. I can’t even remember what I was thinking when it happened. In fact I don’t remember any of it. All I do know is that I needed money which is why I was gambling and now I have about 600-1,000$ less than when I started.
This is what I hate the most though. I spend the next few hours or days wondering what the F I was thinking.
So I’m officially done, never trying to make money again. I’m sick of making mistakes like this. It sucks because my current situation gambling was the only thing keeping me going. I can’t work right now for various reasons. I don’t know what I‘ll do for money anymore But oh well I’m never ever losing money again for no damn reason. /rant
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Consider yourself lucky you are not in a mess. All of the details of near wins are meaningless because all that matters is that you stop completely. Most people only do when the consequences outweigh their desire to quit which you can imagine when that is. Job loss, divorce, health issues, severe debt, lost relationships, etc. all of this are just little bumps in the road but if not recognized and controlled, the consequences will be so much more severe. Be thankful you lost because it’s going to prevent much worse if you won, you would’ve gave it back eventually. The only answer to this is abstinence. I wish there was a better answer. I’ve been in your shoes 1,000 times. Started young and now middle age. Trust me when I say it gets worse and this disease takes you places you never thought you can imagine.
>I wouldn’t say I have a severe gambling problem
But also:
>I actually hate gambling because I don’t like to lose, I get horribly angry!
>but I just blew through 600$ for no damn reason when I really needed the money.
>I never seem to stop when I’m ahead and then I’ll lose 1-300$ and get super angry and just lose the rest out of pure rage.
> I won 12,000$ on buffalo gold in january of 2025 and I somehow lost ALL of it, I never even withdrew the damn money. It happens every time I win a lot or lose a lot.
> but whenever I win a lot I always F’ing lose it right back and then I get SUPER angry and spend more money trying to win back what I lost.
>I can’t even remember what I was thinking when it happened. In fact I don’t remember any of it. All I do know is that I needed money which is why I was gambling and now I have about 600-1,000$ less than when I started.
>It sucks because my current situation gambling was the only thing keeping me going.
Doesn’t seem like you don’t have a gambling problem
You seem to forget the house always wins and there is no thing like “I’ll do it again and win the money back.” If it worked that way, they wouldn’t have a business to run. Stop thinking there is something messed up with you. That’s just the way gambling is.
Been gambling long enough to know there is no good outcome of out gambling whether you are down or ahead… in the end the house wins. Why? because we are compulsive. the chase will not stop until we have lost it all. period.
Read and follow these steps to break your gambling addiction. If you have any questions or need to talk about it, hit me up in chat. Regards, John [https://www.reddit.com/r/problemgambling/comments/1pxt0at/comment/nx9srs4/](https://www.reddit.com/r/problemgambling/comments/1pxt0at/comment/nx9srs4/)